You can’t build a new life by pretending the old one never existed.

I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge. That myth is more potent than history. That dreams are more powerful than facts. That hope always triumphs over experiences. That laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe Love is stronger than death. ~Robert Fulghum, Author of “All I Really Need to Know Ilearned in Kindergarten.”

I remember when Falghum’s book when it came out in 1986. It became a buzz in the hallways and byways. Everyone I knew, friends and co-workers talked about it at lunch time and in between times.  Some of his popular quotes emphasize the importance of community, balance, imagination and hope.  He encourages appreciating the simple things and finding meaning in ordinary moments, like learning in the Kindergarten.

Precious Memory

I didn’t attend kindergarten when I was a child. Close to that idea was I was invited by a friend to attend Bible Summer School at Emmaus School in Ngerchemai. It was probably a Vacation Bible School. I was 6 years old. It was fun. My mother packed my lunch of rice and kangkum with tuna. My father drove me and my friend in his WWII jeep to Emmaus. We listened to Bible Stories and we colored with crayons and we sang “Meltitai meltitai el mo Eroid.” They were some of the best five days of my childhood. I can close my eyes and see those Bethania students teaching us. And a German schwester who spoke Palauan really well. That was 1957. Forty-five years later I went back to Emmaus as a teacher.

It’s ironic how simple things move people in more ways than one making us recall things that wounded us as youngsters  and changed the trajectory of our life. So we move on to look for deep wounds, for deep level healing. Healing of our memories.

The need for healing those traumas of abandonment and rejection, (the emotional, physical, and/or sexual abuses) and agreements (when you believed and agreed with the abuser) that you were a nuisance, a burden and worthless flash through your mind they feel like its happening at the moment (PTSD). It hurts.

When I began the psycho-therapy I had to go through deep level healing. One thing that helped was taking walks with Jesus. I enjoyed his company even when I complained about his whereabouts when I was neglected and when I was made to feel worthless, unloved, and not Belonging. Where were you God?

God doesn’t change history he sanctifies the event. Meaning he was there all the time. Look at his face and find peace. Nothing goes to waste. In the kindergarten – All your pain (fettilizers are madw of the stinking cow manure) will be your redemption. to help you bloom. God doesn’t immediately perfect believers upon salvation, suggesting that spiritual maturity and godliness developed during our earthly life will impact our eternal experience.

The road is long with many a winding turns and so is maturity. You don’t change overnight for others – that would be people pleasing. You grow for yourself… it’s growing up to your true self- your inner child-  that God designed before he created the universe.

Be patient. Trust the process.

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