The first time I heard Mozart Concerto 20 in d, k 466 -2, my heart swelled too big for my chest. I was 21 years old. Today I’m 73 and still my heart swells and spills out in tears. I can’t explain why.
There’s something about music especially classical music that moves you to feel the unnamed feeling. I stop and not even think but God knows and He understands. Perhaps it’s these feelings Apostle Paul calls our groans only God understands.
I’m so glad there is a God who understands my groans I have no words for.
Last week was hard for me. I felt alone, with no one on my side. I even felt God was so far far away. I closed my eyes and let tears come. I was being
punished for someone else’s mistakes. I don’t understand. I really don’t get it. Why me?
Ego Defense Mechanisms
When something goes wrong, admitting that we made a mistake feels like a personal attack on our ego. Blaming others, therefore, becomes an automatic way of defending our pride and reinforcing our belief in our own competence. Also you may direct your grievances to an innocent child who happens to stand nearby. It’s an assigned responsibility to an innocent child called the Scapegoat.
I’ve been a scapegoat in my family for as long as I can remember. It’s toxic really. Ive learned to take them to the foot of the cross ✝️ of Christ and leave them there.
Dealing with a toxic person can be mentally draining, but employing certain communication techniques can help you protect your boundaries. I knew they had to unload their stinking garbage somewhere. If it’s me, then Jesus please help me. First I forgive them for hating me enough to throw family trash on me. I know Jesus will.help me.
I decided to.visit Mozsrt and let my no word moment be touched by God who knows my groans and remind me he’s here with me.
God is real and his love is loyal. Always loyal and trustworthy.
God also restores what Satan stole from my life last week. Jesus Christ is my Redeemer.